ep 2 (i): life of little mia

gonna be long, long talk. mix language ofc ;)

on going

just now, still in a call with my boyfriend. tidur, tedah nya ngantok teman mia nangga cerita John.W. overall, 10/10. ive never watched that movie. but somehow, i remember those past few years masa mia masih tinggal dekat Selangor. its not that i miss Selangor, lol. bad memories related, tapi i do miss the time where i get to be alone. i basically grew up there and gain consciousness there.

let's begin.

2015

we decided to move out sebab my dad got his job transfered to Selangor. a rezeki for us, i can say. baruk jak start sekolah rendah, tiba tiba pindah. unawarely, it affects me in such different ways. i remember the day before we move out. my family clean up the whole house, my cats were put in a cage to be sent to our kampung. my relatives will take care of them (all of my cats died). the thing is, all my cats are so pretty ! thick fur, pretty colors, well behaved. but all of them died not long after theyve been seperated from us. i remember the tree infront of my house were cut off, i sat on the core of the tree because i used to climb the tree a lot. berangan.

then when we arrived, i remember eating those coca cola candy with red wrapper and sizzling thing inside the candy.

we used to travel here and there luar negeri. went to melaka, kelantan, terengganu, penang, perlis, pahang, kedah, and places around kl such as putrajaya, shah alam, etc.

2016

well, i remember not far from our living area, we often used to eat dekat this one specific kedai. i fell in love with a drink the kedai serves. laici longan GAHSHA. nothing special am i right? but what makes it special was i remember it was rainy night. the kedai got this some lighting setup, with warm yellow vibe and the chair were wrapped with a fabric, tv in the corner while my dad watches it, while im playing minecraft and my mom taking pictures. it was pretty cold that time. sure it feels lonely because my sisters wasnt there. two, in uni. the other one part time dekat aeon. but i somehow make peace with the situation. i mean, making peace with the loneliness. i cant force the situation, i cant so much. im the only one nok masih bersekolah. so my age gap between my sisters were pretty big. the sis above me pun 10 years apart.

i remember we used to have a night car drive, at the same time ambik my sister from aeon bc thats where she was working. then sometimes, we'd go to malls. weekend mostly. i remember us driving through a big highway at night, driving across a long bridge and sungai underneath, with lamp street glazing over my face. i used to listen to songs a lot while going on car rides. thanks to my third sister's taste, i adapted a lot from her. shes cool, i basically grew up with her mostly.

i also remember being obsessed with horror movies. this movie named Sinister. mind you i was 8/9 when i watched this movie. it's very fcuked up. orang padah "boleh putus urat mun nangga" as a little kid. then i get obsessed with them western culture. obsessed with the cold, basically practicing myself with the cold incase id ever go overseas. delusional. i remember i took an ice and would hold them as long as i could so id get used to it. i mean im sure i got frostbite once on purpose. thank god my tiny fingers survived though. and dont ask me why i think that would manifest me going overseas.

looking back through those, i realized how different i was from all my schoolmates. around that time, musically was a big thing dalam bab social media. masa tok la tumblr pun trending, instagram baruk start juak and facebook mula dipinggirkan. tedah. oh no.. my musically account is still out there, public. nasib kmk sik pake nama ic oh.

i think, us batch 07 was the last batch to ever grew up with musically and such western culture. Lisa and Lena, Loren Gray, etc. oh they were in their prime era.

i also remember going on flights time to time. Sarawak, Selangor, back and forth. what an experience. i miss airport feelings.

banyak gik senanya mok klaka. pi dah ngantok gilak tegal malam tek dig in sal blogsport tok. jumpa blogsport pasal kakak dikpun, was fun looking back through those old blogsport though., kelak sambong gik la oh HAHA